A sinking feeling in my heart
Began to push it through my brain
I tried not to let it part
But it began to fall with the rain
Amdist this turmoil there was this sudden calm
When you caught my teardrop in your palm

thought this in the middle of the night... and saved into onto an sms... i was lost and lonely and had been shivering... suddenly i felt warm... there are always signs to show you that you are never alone!

Show Me The Way

When life seems very tough and all dreams seem too distant to achieve... I need you to hold me close... you dont have to say it'll be ok if you dont think it will... you dont have to come up with consoling words to make me feel better... I just need you to share the silence with me... and walk beside me while I take the next step... Can you?

Last Day On Earth

There comes a time in everyone's life when you realize that life is so unpredictable. A few ago this thought came into my mind - What if today was my last day on earth? What if I were to die? Would it make a difference to anybody? Have I touched anyone's life that deeply?
There are so many dreams I have... so many things I want to do... so if I don't get to live my dreams... should I consider my life to be incomplete?
I have had a nice life... its surprising that I am saying that today... usually I always want something more... but I'm looking at life from a different perspective now. I have the most wonderful family - Papa - who pampered me in every way that he could, Ma - who gave me the best of everything... she's the strongest person I've known, Eesh - who fought with me like every kid bro does... and has his own way of showing me that he loves me.
I've had the best friends anyone could ever ask for... and more importantly... we grew up together... but never grew out of each other!
I have had those instances that every girl wants - first crush... first love (and then many more)... the first (and only) guy I asked out (and was turned down by)... people who have taken care of me... people who have let me care for them... everyone person in my life has taught me something... and if I were to die... I will be taking these lessons of life with me!
Yes... I do have dreams... there are many things I still have to do... but if I were to die today... I would die happy... and I will not want the people around me to be sad! I know its every parents nightmare to lose their child... and they will always question - Why her? Why not me? I know every brother/sister is going to think about everytime they fought and wish they had said "I love you" more often... I know every boyfriend will be devastated if he were to lose his girfriend... but life has to go on... and I would have loved him eternally... and losing a friend is probably the worst of all... coz every relationship begins with friendship...
I dont wanna sound too philosophical... but I do believe that death is the celebration of life... and I would want everyone whose life I have touched to celebrate with me!

A little note for the people of my life - there are a few things I would like to say... incase this unpredictable life decides to end for me... I'm sorry for all the pain and hurt I have caused... Thank you for all the memories you have given me - both good and bad - coz they have taught me to appreciate life... and I Love You - I may not say it enough - but I Love You - and always will!

Bangalore City

For those who know me... they know how much I love this place... Spinn... TGIF... basketball... jeweler's street... Bangalore has been home for longer than I can remember!
And those who really know me... they know how apprehansive I am about finally living here!
Can a person feel two totally contrasting emotions at the same time? Can you love and hate the same person? Can you laugh and cry? (no... i'm not talking about khushi ke aasoon!)
I thoroughly enjoy my work... come back home at the end of the day with this satisfaction of finally taking a step towards my dreams... at the same time... every road I travel upon takes me back in time... I am 7 again... and I miss the Bangalore I knew so well... cycling on the empty roads of the Air Force Station at Yelahanka... carefree days with friends who have just disappeared from my life... like almost everything else from that time!
I still am not sure if I can survive the memories... but I am not going back so soon... although i dont believe in myself as much as I did a few years back... I have faith in those who believe in me! I'll be ok!