I'm scared!

I'm scared... of being in love!
I'm scared... of losing you!
I'm scared... of smiling!
I'm scared... of being sad!
I'm scared... of being ALONE!

THE SIMPLE LIFE!

All I want in life is to give a little love; and to get a little!

FREE SPIRIT...

i often think of who i am... but never get a clear answer... i guess everyday i am a different person... so when you think you know me... ask yourself... how long have you known me? have many times have you seen me change?
a friend once called me a FREE SPIRIT... and i think he got the closest to knowing the real me... he told me to remember DREAMS... that i would not stop living because of someone who does not understands or cares about me... he taught me not to be afraid of change... "things change", he said, "you are a bird.., a free spirit! no cage is good for you... you belong up there... i've seen it and i know... its what you are... you are RADHIKA.. and i know who you are... and where you belong... dont let any obstacle stop u... i know nothing can stop you... but i have to say for the sake of it... letting go things is the strength... things will come, pieces will fall in its own place... all you need to do is to believe in yourself... you are the best... and would always be... i trust you.. and i say cause i care!"
what he wrote was only to be read and understood, only to be remembered and not to be kept... but i'm glad i saved it... beacause today things are changing... he is going away... i know he will always be there for me... looking out for me... but for the times that i am lost... i will have his words with me!
today i have someone special in my life... someone who is getting to know me... and when i talk to him... i teach him all that i was once taught... because we are all free... free to define our own lives... to go for our dreams... to believe in something that no one else understands... but every now and then... we need a friend's reassurance... not someone who will tell you how to do things... but someone who will stand by you quietly... and be a part of your dream.

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours."
-- Ayn Rand, "Atlas Shrugged"

"Invictus" - William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishment the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Everyday i tell myself... today i'm gonna write something... something that means something to someone... something that when YOU read... you will think... i have been there...
i want to describe what i feel... but then i realised... i cannot recognize what i feel most of the times... how will i pen it down?